And just like that, we went from talking everyday to barely talk at all. Now, even after knowing how much you mean to me, you would still do this. I don't know what to feel anymore.  Empty and sad.

too much

Tell me what did I do wrong? Is it because of what I said that day? Is it because the way I pulled you down all the time? Is it because I was and still am such a nuisance to you? Tell me. Tell me. You can't just ignore me and expect me to be okay with it. You can't just treat me like shit while you treat others who weren't even there for you in the first place better. I was there. Me. When everyone else was against you. You can't do this to me. No.

The main question now is why you're doing what you're doing to me right now?

525 600

Everyone's trying to shut me down lately. Thank God school is about to end and I don't really care much about people here but I grew to care about you. Eventhough you don't even want to breathe near me. I am truly grateful for everything. Thank you so much.

Trying to give my 100% focus on my studies and trying my extremely best to not give a shit about you. Wish me the greatest luck.

need to be an alloy

It's 3 in the afternoon and the thought of you made me cry again. I thought maybe since we were never together, it would be easy for me to forget about your cute little face. But I just can't seem to do that. You're everywhere. Everything I see, hear, touch, smell reminds me of you. I want you... so bad. But it's wrong. It's just so wrong. I loved you. Shit, I still love you so much. You're in my mind, my heart. Everywhere. You're inflicting too much on me and it hurts. I just want to be able to feel something else rather than feeling this deep admiration towards you. I have decided that I will off myself. Utterly and completely. Kill myself if I had to. But always remember that I love you. Always.

Why did you have to go to her when I was the one who has been there for you through everything?

02:11 am

I can't sleep knowing the fact that you're probably still talking to her. The good for nothing bitch who has no sense of being a human. It hurts me that you don't even talk to me that often anymore. I miss you so much. You inflicted too much pain on me and I am so weak. I am not strong enough to handle all the pain at once. You are everything to me. Everything. What happened to your feelings 3 years ago? Probably it's because how I gradually became uglier. I hope there's still a slight something in your heart, deep down, towards me. I value everything we had and have. I just want you to feel the same.

How could you still sleep peacefully knowing that I am trying to off myself?

Please, thank you, excuse me; what are the purposes of these words?

I can't seem to get you out of my head and I hate it. I can't take this anymore. I can't take not talking to you. I can't take crying every night just because you didn't acknowledge my presence. You're just too much. You occupy most of my heart, probably all of it. It's just too difficult for me to handle. I just want you. Even as low as being only friends. I just want you. And only you. Nobody else matters anymore, to me. I guess this proves that I love you so much. I want you. Please.


I said please, so can I get what I asked for now?

Probability of us is probably less than zero and it hurts

I thought I was special to you but it turns out..... I'm just another one of your classmate. I loved you. You told me so too. I may still love you now, too much. Come back.

I miss the old you, us.